Every encounter brings me nearer to closure on this journey. As I reflect back I recognize that this portion of my life, though life threatening still does not compare to other aspects for complexity and adventure. It is a mini-series in my already complicated life. There are things that I must say have caused me more pain and agony.
As she was removing the port I spoke about my thirty plus years of migraines. Stress, allergies or hormonal, I will never know but years of that took its toll on me.
I have thought often about Job in my medical adversities. Questioning how long must this go on and growing at the same time. In my worst of time I had continued in forward motion knowing that with evey hurdle there is the possibility of rest.
This is my time of rest.
Psalm 32:1-11 Blessed is the person whose disobedience is forgiven and whose sin is pardoned. Blessed is the person whom the Lord no longer accuses of sin and who has no deceitful thoughts. When I kept silent about my sins, my bones began to weaken because of my groaning all day long. Day and night your hand laid heavily on me. My strength shriveled in the summer heat. Selah I made my sins known to you, and I did not cover up my guilt. I decided to confess them to you, O Lord. Then you forgave all my sins. Selah For this reason let all godly people pray to youwhen you may be found. Then raging floodwater will not reach them. You are my hiding place. You protect me from trouble.You surround me with joyous songs of salvation. Selah The Lord says,“I will instruct you. I will teach you the way that you should go.I will advise you as my eyes watch over you. Don’t be stubborn like a horse or mule. They need a bit and bridle in their mouth to restrain them, or they will not come near you.” Many heartaches await wicked people, but mercy surrounds those who trust the Lord. Be glad and find joy in the Lord, you righteous people. Sing with joy, all whose motives are decent.
"You are my Hiding Place" by Selah